Having an off day
Well actually it has been more than just a day. I’m trying, I am really trying, but today i just can’t Continue reading Having an off day
Tag: depressed
I’m fine
Or so I keep telling everyone. I’m trying really hard to get through this period. Work is stressful, it makes me very insecure, loneliness is weighing on me, motivation is hard to find, I need change, I need to change, I’m tired of being sad, and stressed, and depressed. If only I knew how Continue reading I’m fine
Struggling
Wish I had better things to say, but I’m still struggling. Struggling with my depression, with a total lack of energy, and lack of courage to do anything about it. Trying to be positive and keep on going though. Trying to enjoy the better weather and the sunshine. Forcing myself to get out of my house and see the munchkins – who really do help … Continue reading Struggling
Slowly getting back to lighter days
Still fighting the funk I’m in. It’s getting better, but it is still difficult. Last week I couldn’t face going to work. So I didn’t. I know that that is not the solution, especially since I am self employed, so i really cannot afford this. But I just couldn’t get motivated. After vegging out during the weekend and on monday I reached out to a … Continue reading Slowly getting back to lighter days
When dark gets too dark
A few weeks ago my cousin took her own life. She suffered from severe depression for years and psychosis for the last couple of years. It’s heavy to deal with. I wasn’t particularly close to her, I have a very complicated relationship with my family, but it hit hard. Should I have tried harder when she reached out a few years ago, will I ever … Continue reading When dark gets too dark
It’s been a while
The past couple of weeks have been hard. I was in survival mode – all my energy was needed just to get out of bed in the morning and go to work. I’ve started my meds back – I take mood-stabilisators – as I was close to tears all the time and the slightest thing would set me off. Guess I’m grateful to know I … Continue reading It’s been a while
Conflicted feelings
I have been taken a mood stabilisator for two years. On holiday I forgot to take them and so I decided to stop all together. This was end of September. A month later and finally rid of the side effects of stopping with them I’m struggling. I feel down and cry easily. I am under a lot of stress and in a lot of pain, … Continue reading Conflicted feelings
