I have been taken a mood stabilisator for two years. On holiday I forgot to take them and so I decided to stop all together. This was end of September. A month later and finally rid of the side effects of stopping with them I’m struggling. I feel down and cry easily. I am under a lot of stress and in a lot of pain, … Continue reading Conflicted feelings
Yesterday, I arrived in NewYork. As my birthday is today, and it is still a painful memory to sadder days, I always try not to be in Belgium on that day. And this year, New York was on the list again. I love this city! Different is that a friend is tagging along. Great fun, but also stress factor, as I am constantly confronted with … Continue reading New York, the city of dreams and nightmares
Not sure wether it is because it is September, or wether it is because two friends lost their dads recently but I am struggling with my past. I sleep badly, obsess about the strangest things, feel really low, can’t seem to not think about my parents – feeling bad about my dad, and the usual frustration/anger towards her. You would think I would have learned … Continue reading Struggling
A week ago I heard this song: in the blood by John Mayer but in a version of one of my favorite bands Home Free. It is amazing how these lyrics are so close to my own feelings. I’ve been listening to it non-stop. And such a beautiful version as well. It is probably not the best thing to listen to it that much, because … Continue reading Music to my struggle
And all of a sudden it is September. A very conflicting and challenging month for me. I love the season, fall but still warm, leaves are starting to change color, enjoying indian spring evenings. And on the downside, it is my birth month, the month my demons are very much alive and kicking. I struggle with them, seems even more tham ever. I’m getting desperate … Continue reading September
I’m happy depression is getting more out in the open, and people are more aware of it, but I still find it difficult to talk about it. Not only because of the reason behind it is still difficult to say out loud, but also because most people either treat you as if you are damaged (okay, I am, but no reason to treat me differently) … Continue reading Snap out of it?
This is a hard one for me. I know all the things I need to do. I want to do the things I need to do. Most of the things I need to do are things I like to do. And still, they don’t get done because I cannot find the motivation to get them done. If anyone knows of an effective way to get … Continue reading Motivation?