After more than 30 years I had enough of being in a complicated relationship. It’s been one of the most difficult decisions of my life, but it felt like the right one. I’ve done this before, but it never felt right until now. It still hurts, and I miss him, but it is the right thing to do. Another complicated relationship is the one with … Continue reading Complicated relationships
I met a friend of mine the other day, hadn’t seen him for a while, and he told me about his new career moves and the things that had changed in his life. We had a good talk and touched on some deep stuff, and one really hit home: what do I want in life, what are my dreams and hopes for the futures. I … Continue reading What do I want in my life?
So a couple years ago I decided to become a freelancer. To my big surprise, it worked out fine. I got one project after another. But it is and stays too much out of my comfort zone. As a very insecure person, and being single it just felt too much of a risk, and it gave me a lot of stress not to know whether … Continue reading From freelancer to employee and back
It’s been a year since I last was here, and what a year it has been. I’m going to try and work through it in the next days and tell you a bit more about it. But mostly I am happy for the new decade to begin, and to leave this one behind. I suffered, I depressed, I laughed, I cried, I loved, I hurt, … Continue reading A year later
All my life I have tried to be normal, like everyone else, to fit in. Maybe I should rethink this. Continue reading QOTD
This one is difficult. I had an abusive childhood, and I still carry that weight with me. It have a severe impact on who I am, and I am still struggling with it today. But I guess I also made me who I am, it shaped my values, and my view on the world. It made me very aware of unfairness, and unkindness, two this … Continue reading Journalling Challenge: Day 2: Grateful for . . . My Past
Although I am struggling with depression and low self esteem, I do know that I have a lot to be grateful for when it comes to my life. I have friends that truely care about me, I am a homeowner – something I never thought I would accomplish, I have a career, not too many financial troubles, I can still do most of what I … Continue reading Journalling Challenge: Day 1: Grateful for … My Life