Struggling

Wish I had better things to say, but I’m still struggling. Struggling with my depression, with a total lack of energy, and lack of courage to do anything about it. Trying to be positive and keep on going though. Trying to enjoy the better weather and the sunshine. Forcing myself to get out of my house and see the munchkins – who really do help … Continue reading Struggling

Not going home for xmas

I am a bit of a conundrum. I love the period before xmas. I’m singing along my xmas playlist starting somewhere in november. Start decorating the house december 7th – we have a tradition in Belgium to wait till after the other Saint Nik comes by on december 6th. Love the xmas lights all over town and in the gardens around my house. I absolutely … Continue reading Not going home for xmas

September

And all of a sudden it is September. A very conflicting and challenging month for me. I love the season, fall but still warm, leaves are starting to change color, enjoying indian spring evenings. And on the downside, it is my birth month, the month my demons are very much alive and kicking. I struggle with them, seems even more tham ever. I’m getting desperate … Continue reading September