People tell me I’m a strong person. It is not by choice, but because I had to find a way to survive my childhood. I cursed it many times, as it used to be a shield I put up so as not to show my vurnelable side. But know I’m grateful for it, it made me in who I am, and I can proudly say, … Continue reading Journalling Challenge: Day 4: Circumstances
Who knew that a little boy could make such a difference. My godson is my little ray of sunshine. He is authistic, and has difficulty expressing his feelings but it is clear I’m part of his world and he is a fan of me. That makes two of us kiddo! Continue reading Journaling Challenge: Day 3: Relationships
Day 1 is about family. Talk about starting with a difficult one. I don’t have contact with my family much. Growing up in an abusive household can have that effect. I never felt part of my family anyway. I try to reconnect with a cousin and a niece, but it is not the same thing than having a family. It is something I long for, … Continue reading Journaling Challenge: Day 1: Family
And all of a sudden it is September. A very conflicting and challenging month for me. I love the season, fall but still warm, leaves are starting to change color, enjoying indian spring evenings. And on the downside, it is my birth month, the month my demons are very much alive and kicking. I struggle with them, seems even more tham ever. I’m getting desperate … Continue reading September
I’m leaving on holiday tomorrow, going to join friends on their vacation. And although I look forward to it, I also dread it. Dread that I wont be up to expectations, that I will not support the heat, the stress of their relationship being too much to handle, too disappoint the munchkin not being able to play with him fulltime as his nanny did last … Continue reading Holiday aprehension
I’m at a previous employer today for a project. it is with a mixed feeling. I loved working here, I broke my heart (and my confidence) when I needed to leave. My manager was a very manipulative woman and made my life hell. After 18months of this, I gave in and left. But it was difficult. She caused a burn out and my depression was … Continue reading Building the future in a past place
I’m happy depression is getting more out in the open, and people are more aware of it, but I still find it difficult to talk about it. Not only because of the reason behind it is still difficult to say out loud, but also because most people either treat you as if you are damaged (okay, I am, but no reason to treat me differently) … Continue reading Snap out of it?