Not going home for xmas

I am a bit of a conundrum. I love the period before xmas. I’m singing along my xmas playlist starting somewhere in november. Start decorating the house december 7th – we have a tradition in Belgium to wait till after the other Saint Nik comes by on december 6th. Love the xmas lights all over town and in the gardens around my house. I absolutely … Continue reading Not going home for xmas

New York, the city of dreams and nightmares

Yesterday, I arrived in NewYork. As my birthday is today, and it is still a painful memory to sadder days, I always try not to be in Belgium on that day. And this year, New York was on the list again. I love this city! Different is that a friend is tagging along. Great fun, but also stress factor, as I am constantly confronted with … Continue reading New York, the city of dreams and nightmares

Struggling

Not sure wether it is because it is September, or wether it is because two friends lost their dads recently but I am struggling with my past. I sleep badly, obsess about the strangest things, feel really low, can’t seem to not think about my parents – feeling bad about my dad, and the usual frustration/anger towards her. You would think I would have learned … Continue reading Struggling