I had a conversation with one of my new colleagues. She is a psychologist specialised in trauma. In a conversation about trauma I mentioned I still have some to deal with but I didn’t wanne do it at the moment. I’m afraid I cannot deal with it. Yet. I’m trying to stabilize myself right now. And that still is hard work.
She told me I was kidding myself. That I was not on the way up, but at best on stationary level. That the only way to go further was to hit rock bottom. And then she said something astonishing: she said that being at rock bottom gives energy: that the fact knowing you are the bottom gives you a positive feeling, and knowledge it can only get better. I never thought of it that way. Some food for thought.