Need to, want to, have to, probably able to, but HOW?

As I was eating a portion of fries at lunch time I realized (again) how I always turn to food when feeling down. And it has been bad lately, I constantly eat junk food, I don’t even try to shop for healthy stuff. I know I need to change, my body is screaming for a change, but my mind seems to be powerless against the habit of eating bad food. I’m stuck in this vicious circle: no energy – bad food – low thoughts – bad food – no energy – …

All I need to do is snap out of it, said someone who is now way low on my friendslist. As if I didn’t know that, as if it was that easy I wouldn’t have done that a long while ago. And no I am not wallowing in self-pity here. I’m struggling to get out of bed in the morning, getting through the day, keeping the dark thoughts at bay, and desperately looking for the silver lining. And I do see it, for very brief moments every now and than, but they are not strong enough to break through the cycle.

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